Sometimes, You Cannot
Do It Alone…
While I want to lose weight, what I really want more is to
be lean and healthy in all ways…physically, mentally and spiritually. I have the “want to”. I have the growing discipline. What I don’t have is the full discipline and
the full know how. Thus, the trainer.
In my initial meeting, I told one of the trainers, “I don’t
want to become some fitness beast who is so obsessed with their own physical
fitness that all else in their live takes a back seat. What I want is common sense fitness to grow
my body into a healthy form so that I am better able to serve others and to be
my best self.”
I believe that our bodies are vessels given to us by God
and the better we care for them, the
better able we are to do the work we are called to do. Thus, having a healthy one, is vital to our
lives.
There are obstacles I have in my path to fitness. Some are very clear to me. Some are just ideals. Some are not yet known but will become known
as I work toward the direction of better health.
Ultimately, all of it will require work.
And, truth.
To make a change in any facet of our lives, you have to
begin with a foundation of truth.
As I told my trainer….the image I see in my mirror does not match
the image in my heart. How can we
reconcile those two?
She laughed….and, then was serious.
“Sometimes, you cannot.”
I cannot?? Then, why
am I here??
Very kindly but very definitively, she said, “sometimes…..you have
to let go of the old image and paint a new one.”
She explained, “sometimes in life, when you base your future
on what you have seen or done in the past, the image is skewed….and, no matter
how hard you try to erase or change the old image, you cannot do it.” “Sometimes, it is better to paint a new
one. Truly laying down past thoughts and
ideas about yourself and growing new, different thoughts.”
It’s like being “re-drawn”.
So, I looked hard at my trainer and said, “please explain
yourself.”
And, so she did. And,
it made sense.
And, I saw truth in what she said mainly because she said
true change begins with truth with yourself.
That is a “truth” on which both she and I can agree.
She said those who do the best on becoming healthy are those
who learn to be firmly honest with themselves.
Honest about where they are currently and honest about how hard they are
willing to work to get to where they need to be for a healthy body.
She said “all health begins with full truth”.
But, that is the easiest part. She said most people can admit that they are
unhealthy, unfit, undisciplined. Some,
in fact, brag that they know they are this way and that they will just have to
live with themselves because there is nothing they can do to change it. In the name of “self-acceptance”, they will
just have to accept their unhealthy bodies and minds and so will others around
them.
They would be wrong.
She said a certain few get past their surface truth, and to
the core truth in their lives and make changes which forever impact their lives
in a healthy and positive way.
They paint a new picture of themselves.
I am a pretty down-to-earth kind of girl, but this makes
sense to me.
So, part of my goal in working with a trainer is having them
assist me in painting a new picture.
Of myself.
One which is truthful in where I am, honest in where I want
to be and can be and one which is committed…moment by moment…to being the best
self I can be.
And, maybe in doing so, I will get more fit….in all ways.
Bring on the “trainer”…..not just with my physical health
but in all aspects of my life.
Oh wait....HE's been there all along.....bring on a better "student" in me!
Blessings,
Lesa
