I Sit Front Row and Watch My Son
Become a Man May
16, 2014
I confess, I have a child who so reminds me of me that the
watching him grow at times brings highest highs and fiercest pain
My Kenton….he is the middle child who I work hard to keep
off center and more to forefront, but his heart is so tender and shy that it is
a hard mother's task and unless a mother works at it hard, she will miss the
opportunities. I pray God…do not let me
miss a single one
He loves deeply
He feels fervently
He patiently awaits his time and if a mother is not careful,
he will be overlooked because he is not one to shout out loud for neither
attention nor honor
He was a precious baby, a sweetheart toddler, a gentle
teenager and is now a loving young man
I could not feel more proud
I could not be more blessed
He moves along in life, coming to maturity at slow pace and
in his own time, just as God intended
The package of a man God put together in Kenton is
total: heart, mind, body and spirit
God gives you these children…you, an imperfect mother
without a clue on how to grow them right, and places them in your care and you
eventually realize, no skill you have can ever deserve the gift He gives….and,
so, you do all you know to do…
You love them
You love him
You love HIM and Them
He gave me four such blessings….all wrapped up in soft,
silky skin come hard fought and as a result of skinned, prayer- bent- knees
I love my babies, each and every one of them….those I've
come to know and the one who's gone
before us to pave the way, and each one brings to my heart such great emotions
that I am confounded to place a word on how deeply they touch my soul
Way deep, deep in the place where Jesus lives in my heart…it's
where the love for my children was borne…and, where I go when I know not where
else to go..it's where I go tonight for my son Kenton….who travels a journey on
which all I can do is pose with him for a son-requested picture, watch as he
packs, remind him to shave and feel his large, manly hand squeeze my as only
this son can as his Ladder and I pray God's blessing and protection not only on
his body but also on his soul
I love him….more than all of the stars in all of the skies
in all of the world….and, he leaves our home knowing above all things….
Mama loves him…..a big, deep, son-loving/mother-loving kind
of love that only God can give and bless and grow
I sent to the 123 Airlift Wing a boy-child-man and I pray
they return to me a man who they see upfront the potential and work and grow
and develop him into a man who is like no other…the one God intended him to be
It is because of men-possibilities like my son, Kenton, that
I have faith in our country….he is all things honorable and noble and right
which is as it should be….
So, tonight as I watch him salute his mother a goodbye until
Sunday, I don't feel tears well because of fear or trepidation or anxious heart….I
feel them well to over pouring down my face because of all the Mamas in all the
world, for some reason….
God chose me
To be this fine son's Mama…..
And, I am bent with grateful heart
ILYAOYMC, Kenton
Mama
