Just in time for Valentine’s….
Partially because I have initiated the steps for a new journey in my life…time will tell.
But, mostly because I was able to spend the day with one of my most favorite young women in the world.
Madison.
My little sweet pea is growing up.
For a young lady who has been through much in her short life, she is walking through the “stuff” and I am proud of her.
She has not done this on her own….and, it shows.
When I walked into her dorm room today to wait for her as she took a test in one of her classes, I was greeted with many reminders of who is #1 in her life.
I cannot express how touched I was with the words scattered around her room. Truth be told, her former roommate Sara (who has gone to join our military) probably placed most of them in the room, I saw only a few in Madison’s handwriting. But, Madison kept them in their place…and, I know from talking with her, she left them on purpose and in hopes that if she would be faithful in the small things, God would be with her in all things.
None of my children is perfect.
But, neither is their mother.
What I do love about each of them is that they are real and authentic.
And, I believe in my mother’s heart that they do love the Lord. I believe that because I ask them at times if they do….I want them to think about it. Often.
Living for Him is more of a challenge….life is tough in the best of circumstances. So, seeing my daughter’s room blanketed in Bible verses and prayers was very touching…and, it gave me hope and joy.
Hope that He will be with her every moment of the day and that she will recognize that presence.
Joy in knowing that God is faithful to answer prayers – my biggest one of which is that He continually put Godly people in her life to love her and remind her ultimately to whom she belongs.
Further sweet to me was watching Madison participate with her peers in her classroom setting. It was fun to sit in a room where I had sat some 28 years ago and watch her interact with her peers. Fun to see her learning and sharing and laughing. Joyful to see her participate in a mature yet silly way on a fun and silly project.
Sweet as well was walking down the same paths on campus I had walked may years before…thinking I had it figured out and now knowing I didn’t, nor does she.
We did the lunch thing and shared.
We did the Mama/daughter thing and shared.
We did the silly girl thing and snapped photos of ourselves in the car outside of her dorm room. The things I let her talk me into doing is funny.
She talked mature. She talked of boys. She spoke of classwork. She mentioned CRU (a Bible study) and her need to get in the groove this semester.
But, interwoven between all of that woman was the little girl I carried home in my arms almost 22 years ago…
her – baby girl me – Mommy
She just melted my heart. And, I cannot express how grateful I am to God for my little sweet pea.
That God would choose to bless me with such a daughter is one of my greatest joys and gifts….and, days like today are made doubly sweet by being in her presence.
So, we kissed goodbye and I turned my head to see her walk away from the car…one last glimpse of one of the greatest gifts I have ever been given.
Madison Elizabeth Jewel
All wrapped up in a sweet, pink bow and given to me..by Him.
I am eternally grateful.
Blessings,
Lesa