For as he thinketh in his heart, so is he – Proverbs 23:7
The heart is
an important place. I am convinced of
it.
More and
more every day, I am coming to realize how vital, how important, how necessary
it is to have a good one
A pure one
A clean one
How much
different is my life when I think with my heart?
Contrary to
what the world will tell us, thinking with our hearts is not an emotional,
unstable, or foolish thing to do….
It is a Godly expectation
While the
world puts down a person who thinks with her heart, who looks at things,
situations
People
With their
hearts….
The Lord is….
Searching my
heart
Wanting to
know my heart
Wanting me
to consider life, people, and circumstances from my heart’s perspective
I’ve been
thinking a lot about that as I head into my third surgery, fourth time to be
put to sleep and seventh medical procedure within the past eight months. It would seem that before I can catch my
breath and give my human body a chance to heal from one event, I am having to
prepare and move onto the next
It is a
frequent thought that I wonder, “how much more can this old heart take?”
I’m not
afraid. I don’t worry about if I die….
More is my
thought toward my heart….
Have I lived
the days God has given me according to His purpose for my life?
Have I
shared my heart in such a way that when others see me, they see Him? And, better still, do they see in my heart,
the heart of my Father?
I think we
all know the answer to that is a pretty resounding no
I have not
Not
perfectly
Not mostly
Not every single
moment of every single day of my life
No
And yet
I woke from
a deep, fitful sleep this morning to hear myself calling out for my daddy….
I am soon to
be 53 years old the end of this month and never in my entire life have I ever
remembered myself calling, thinking to call, starting to call much less
actually calling God my Father…………..Daddy
My earthly
Daddy has always been my Daddy and my heavenly Father has always been Father
But, for
some reason a little before 7 this morning as I was coming awake I realized
that I was calling out to my Daddy and it was my heavenly one to whom I was
calling….
Odd?
I don’t
think so
The reality
is, I am just a child in this human body
And, I make
no apologies for it
I am His
child
His little
girl
His daughter
Tears flow
from my heart just typing those words because I am coming to so fully
understand their significance in my life
It is from
my Daddy that I gain strength of heart to carry through with the plans He has
for this life of mine, plans to prosper, not to harm, plans to use my life for
His purposes, plans to illuminate my sin so that I may grow closer to him,
plans to forgive my sin so that I become pure through Him.
My Daddy
gave me my heart
And, my
Daddy can take it away
I find
comfort when He tells me
“For I know
the plans I have for you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and I will listen to
you. You will seek me and find me when
you seek me with all your heart. I will
be found by you, declares the Lord, and will bring you back from captivity.”
And all HE
really wants
Is my heart
All of it
The entirety
of its physical muscle walled within my chest
The
wholeness of my heart’s thoughts
The fullness
of my spiritual hearts giving’s
God is the
master potter, constantly shaping and molding and defining and refining
But, in lieu
of a lump of clay
His medium
Is our hearts
My heart
At first, He
knits it right beside the very heart of a humanly mother who will love it and
protect it and care for it second only to God himself…
Then, he grows
it
He stirs it
Searches it
Calls it
He watches
it
He judges it
He breaks it
He tells us
to fix His Word on our hearts
To fully
commit our hearts
To pour out
our hearts to Him
He knows
what He is asking
He wants it
all
Our total
heart
He makes no
apologies and in fact,
Makes clear
to those will listen
He expects
it all
Because He
knows that until we freely give
Fully give
Totally give
Our whole
heart to Him
We will
never have a whole heart
We are
called to trust Him with all of our hearts….
Our whole
heart
And, I do
Out of my heart, I think it
From my heart I give it
All of it
The sum total of it
The whole of it
Blessings
Lesa
