Saturday, March 23, 2013


A Mama Moment…                                    March 23, 2013
            With my children, Madison, Kenton & Johnson
I write for my children…it is my legacy to them.  I post my writings for my daughter and sons and those who love me and have asked me to share….I write so that I can put my thoughts into print and draft a small family book, so, its to these people I share…. 

When I was going through counseling as a part of a divorce I was sad to walk through and did not desire but felt compelled to complete, a much beloved Christian sister, counselor gave me this advice:“Live in truth, Lesa….chose this day to spend the rest of your life living for God and tell the truth in the living because this is God’s promise to you today….”   

“If you hold to my teaching, you are really my disciples, then you will know the truth and the truth will set you free.”  John 8:32

I learned that God can heal all things….but, sometimes, we cannot, in our imperfect humanity. 

God bless her for that loving sharing of God’s will for my life.  It has made all the difference in my life.  It has allowed me to forgive myself....and others. 

What I committed to then was to from that day until I breathe my last, to live in truth and my children and I adopted this saying, “better the ugly truth than a pretty lie”. 

As I have written previously, because of this, I know things about my children and they of me which are ugly, un-beautiful, un-Godly and down right heart-breaking.  Fortunately, these knowings are non-voluminous. Do we do this messy sharing daily and immerse ourselves?  No, we do not. But, do we live in this truth…yes, we do (as far as I know and parents all know...there may be things to come.)

So, as I have shared “A Mama Moment” of happy events, I wanted to share “A Mama Moment” of not so happy events….
 
I don’t plan to elaborate the details…that would be improper and not appropriate… 

But, I share this Mama Moment…because it is not a white picket fence which surrounds our home.  It is a fence with broken boards and even a few broken posts.

I am not a perfect mother.  I do not have a perfect life.  My husband is not perfect.  My children are not perfect.  Our home is not perfect. My legacy to my family is not perfect.

We had “Mama Moments” this week which stretched the limits of my patience, my Godliness and my love.  We said things we did not mean, heard things we did not want to hear and felt things which we did not want to feel. 

I hit my knees hard this week….

I doubted my parenting skills… 

I struggled with what felt like non-answers to prayers from a God whom I know hears me. 

As I write this, I struggle in knowing how to discipline a child who is being disrespectful, how to encourage a child who is seeking to make significant changes in her life and with a child who is questioning the Christianity of those with whom he is surrounded. 

It is painful. 

It is LIFE….. 

The difference I now have in my life is that I now know this with absolute clarity. 

My parents can pray for me, my siblings can encourage me, my church families can pray for me… 

BUT, only GOD can truly help me…

And, even then, He expects me to SEEK Him. 

So, that is what I do this morning….. I confess my weaknesses as a Christian woman, wife, mother, daughter, sibling….friend. And, I take my self, and my struggles and my worries and my brokenness to HIM 

And it is in the so-doing that I find peace 

Peace that passeth all understanding….which only God can provide. 

So, there it is…..A Mama Moment, not so lovely, but yet, so truthful. 

Pray for our family….and, we will pray for yours…. 

A Mama Moment…..May God bless each and everyone….

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 



If It’s Monday Plus Five Days a/k/a Saturday,
                      It May Be Time for a Name Change….. 
L is for Love, Legacy and Less
If I speak in the tongues of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal.  If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing.  If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast, but do not have love, I gain nothing.
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.  It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.  Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.  It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
 
Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.  For we know in part and we prophesy in part,  but when completeness comes, what is in part disappears. When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me. For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love
You know that my very favorite Bible passage is I Corinthians 13.  I have covered every important event in my life with the words of this passage because I knew very early on that love was the key ingredient to a Godly life, both in the giving and in the receiving.  Love unconditionally does not mean to accept behaviors which are wrong.  But, it does mean that you look beyond the bad or wrong to the heart of a person and see the one He made and in doing so, you will find the ability to love.

You and I are both learning that even in the worst of man is a seed of goodness…a goodness which comes from God when he knit that person in the womb of his mother.  As Christians, we are called to love that part of a person in the name of Jesus Christ even when it is not easy, just as we hope others will love that part of us, even when it is not simple. 

As Christ loved us when He lay down His live on that wooden cross…. 

Our cousin posted a quote this week which epitomizes what Real Love is all about… 

“So many girls want a man to save them; A man did save you 2000 years ago on a cross” 

HE and the way HE loves us is the foundation for all other love you will ever experience in your entire life.  Don’t take this lightly. 

CHRIST’s love was so great for MADISON that HE CHOSE to walk those steps to the Cross….to die for every single sin you have ever committed since birth. 

Think      About     That 

If no one else in the whole wide world loved you enough to die for you, HE DID. 

And, not just because He loves you, but because He wants you to receive that love and forgiveness so that you can live into ETERNITY……

Forever….and forever….. 

AMEN! 

Which is why how you live your life is important…

It is why you cannot know how to live your life until you KNOW HIM. 

And, as I have asked you 1,000 times….How do you come to know Him? 

You study Him…. 

In HIS Word, which is really just his LOVE Letter to you, written down so that you can put Him in your hand and touch the very real part of His love for you. 

It is His LOVE Legacy to you…..and, the more your Read His Word, the more you come to know Him, and the more you come to know Him, the more your heart for Him, and for His children will grow and not just grow, but thrive…. 

LEGACY is “something which is handed down from generation to generation.” 

We often think of legacies as “things”, but in actuality, the real legacy of your life is your heart and your ability to love others.  It is how you chose to live your life and for Whom you choose to live.   

I want you to know now at twenty-two what I did not fully appreciate until only recently in my life… 

YOUR LEGACY MATTERS 

What you leave behind matters. 

When I had cancer, I truly felt like I saw my life flash before my very eyes…all of it…the good of it…the bad of it. 

Your walk with God matters….how well do you know Him? 
Your walk with your spouse….how well do you love and honor him?
Your walk with your children….how well do they see you knowing Him and loving him?
Your walk with your family….how well have you invested and come to know them?
Your walk with your friends….how well have you lived so that they know who is your first love?
Your walk in the presence of strangers….would they see Christ living in you? 

A major lesson I received from my cancer is that while I need to remember a lot of things….including the above, ultimately…ultimately… 

At the end of the day… 

I will stand there naked….just like I came into this world….and it will be…. 

Just ME

And HIM

I have this image of Jesus meeting me at the Gates…..he reaches out His hand to me and greets me with a smile….grabs my hand and says,

“Lesa….come meet our Father” 

I walk up to our God 

And suddenly, it is just me and Him… 

And, as God is my witness…..I want to know Him 

I want my life on earth as it is reflected on that day to be one which is testimony to a life of coming to know Him…..

In the way I study His Word
In the way I speak
In the way I live
In the legacy I leave my children

I have learned not to strive for perfection, because there is no perfection in humanity. 

There is only perfection in our death unto HIM. 

I pray that today…you will stop in what you are doing and think about your legacy… 

It matters…

How you live your life, every step you take, every breath you take…. 

They matter. 

Live your life so that when you are at the gates and Jesus takes your hand and walks you to our Father….

Your legacy is one of striving…

To live for HIM. 

“Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us,  to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.   Ephesians 3:20

And finally, but not the least of today’s sharing… 

LESS….. 

My name, as you know, is LESA…..when I was growing up, many times, people would say to me,  

“Hey Less-a….what are you less of??”

I heard that more times than I care to remember and not only by children, but also by adults who thought they were being funny…. 

It used to really bother me…. 

It made me want to change it to LISA….so GRATEFUL my mother ignored those pleas! 

The definition of “less” is lower in consideration, I knew that.  I can even remember looking up in the dictionary (back in the days when you had to go to an actual hard backed book) and looked up the word less….

Which means….

“lower in consideration….without…minus….smaller in size…..lower in importance” 

And, while I cannot say I was devastated by the times I was asked this question….it did make me wonder at times….especially in hard times….about my worth. 

In actuality, I was named for my much beloved
 
Daddy (Chester LEE) and Mama (Shirley Sue) = Lesa Sheryl  
 
 

A name which I love and appreciate because it is a constant reminder of their legacy to me… 

In name, in life, in faith 

And, as I grew into appreciation of my name and confidence that I was NOT less of anything in the eyes of God…

I actually grew a heart which desired to be less.. 

In HIM. 

Isn’t it funny how God works?

When I was called “less of what”, I wanted to be more? 

But, when I grew in faith and love for God, and AS I grow in faith and love for God… 

I want to become less… 

I have prayed for that….less of me…..more of God 

Less of arrogance and more of humility……God is providing
 
Less of judgment and more of compassion…..God is providing

Less of weakness and weak will and more of strength and bold serving….God is providing

Less of talking and more of listening…..God is providing 

The less I am of me…

The more I grow into Him… 

Less is a good thing… 

He tells us… 

“The King will reply, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did for me.’  Matthew 25:39-41

“Jesus said to them, “Truly I tell you, at the renewal of all things, when the Son of Man sits on his throne, you who have followed me will also sit on the twelve thrones…..and everyone who has left houses….for my sake will receive a hundred times as much and will inherit eternal life…but, many who are first will be last, and many who are last, will be first.”  Matthew 19: 28-30
And, as God is want to do….HE gave me a daily reminder that I am to be frequently last….

I remember the first time I opened the directory at SCOC after your Dad and I divorced and I had remarried and become a Young…I looked for my name and yours and your brothers…and,
Fittingly….
Appropriately…
Alphabetically….
It was LAST.
I had gone from a comfortable “middle” position in the directory….to
Last…
And, I remember thinking, “Lord, let me always remember this moment….that I am to be less of me…last in importance in this world and more of you.”
And you know….God, our precious Father…He just loves us so much….
He gives us exactly…perfectly what we need..
He gave me a “Y”……..
And, in the so doing, gave me one of His greatest gifts in my life…
A constant reminder to be….Less
Less of me
MORE of HIM! 

Blessings Sweet Daughter,

ILYAOYMC,
Mama