I have started a new chapter in my life. It is bittersweet in that I never ever expected to be here. But, here I am. It is bittersweet in that I had to learn to let go….and, while now I have peace, I also have broken little pieces inside me which I believe I will carry for the rest of the balance of my days here on earth. The only reason I can carry these pieces is that I do not carry them alone…God’s hands are wrapped around every little broken fragment and I know that healing will come.
Letting go of anything is not an easy process….in fact, it is not a process, it is a journey. And, in my case my faith belief that God can do all things enabled me to stay in a place where otherwise I would have long ago let go. As I look back I see that there was a purpose for this journey and while I don’t see it fully at this writing, I am able to see small vignettes of purpose each day.
A friend told me early on in this journey that while God is not always happy with our decisions, He never leaves us nor forsakes us as we struggle to find our way. I know this to be truth.
I have made some tough decisions these past three years….frankly, some which those around me struggle with. But, as one of my children told me just today, “Mom, we have walked the journey with you…we know truth….”and, in that I can find peace.
So, as I begin this new chapter, I will do as a wise woman told me…..let go.
Let go and let God be my guiding light in an even more and sincere and deep way…..
I thought I knew him before….but, now I realize that I am just at the beginning of knowing Him.
I have peace in my life. Peace which passeth all understanding. And, I believe it comes from God.
And, in that peace I can find it to “let go”…
Blessings
Lesa
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